“They’re getting W – O – R – S – E “ Ben whispered to me through the darkness. We were lying on Eddy’s bed holding hands across his tiny trembling body in the post ictal aftermath of another ruthless seizure. As if he knew what we were spelling across the yawning chasm of our dread, Eddy rolled over to fling his arms around my neck. There he let tears of terror rain down wetly down on my face as I felt my own sobs choke out of my chest to meet him.
I knew. He knew it. Only Ben was able to say it out loud. Eddy couldn’t hold on much longer. Since we discovered CBD 3 years ago, he had never gone this long without it. Not only was CBD therapeutic for his epilepsy, it helped even his mood and took the edge off his chronic anxiety – now left raw to ravage his mind.
Earlier that day his heart heaving anguish burst forth. Tucking his little head into my arms, as I sat at my computer furiously emailing politicians, he climbed into my lap sniffling. His big blue eyes were red from intense crying. Searching mine for comfort; he told me felt he was going to die from his seizures. In doing so, he spoke my greatest fear into existence.
My immediate instinct to squash that thought down, lest fate be tempted to visit him. Instead, we sat with that horror on a cold grey morning that should have been a school day for Eddy but wasn’t. Already unwell with the cruel convulsions that strangled him blue in the night, I couldn’t risk any immunity challenges to dail the danger level beyond the pale. Quietly crying and cuddling together we acknowledged that my 6 year old son was petrified I might outlive him tonight. That I was petrified I might too.
We clung to each other in the early smalls of Eddy’s 7th birthday last Tuesday screaming silent; what cruel twist of fate is this? Somehow my son’s quality of life had become a metaphor for the accessibility of Medicinal Cannabis in Aotearoa New Zealand – or lack thereof. The failure of our Medicinal Cannabis scheme was criminal law enforcement on a child that suddenly withdrew his prescribed medication to risk his little life, the Minister’s punitive silence on our plea for help, and pre-emptive refusal to entertain review after 3 long years of increasingly reduced access.
Fast forward to Monday TV1 Breakfast with the PM in the hot seat and Jenny May on the grill. Just the Friday before, Scotty Stevenson interviewed me and Chloe Swarbrick on the same show, with our public plea to the Minister of Health to fix our broken Medicinal Cannabis scheme and grant an amnesty to patients, carers and green fairies until we have working local market. Jenny May did an incredible job of following up, holding Jacinda to account but she lacked the full story and the PM was doing a political dodge with some fancy misinformation so here it is; part 1 of our full story from go to woe. (Part 2 to follow next week.)
On March 15 we ordered Eddy’s meds as per usual to our home address which always ships with a printed copy of Eddy’s prescription inside. In all the years I have been ordering these products, it had never been stopped, always passed go. Transit taking anywhere between 5 to 10 days to leave London and enter NZ. From Customs to our house usually 24/48hs. When I could see no further tracking updates and things had gone longer than a few days after I saw Eddy’s meds enter the country, I rang NZ Post to find out what the hold-up was.
I dislike cutting things fine with Eddy’s meds and on occasion have driven to the courier depot to collect rather than wait for the delivery to our door. I was advised our package was still awaiting clearance and given a Wellington number for Medsafe to get the number for the Auckland medicines clearance team. I rang, no answer and left a voicemail. The following day I got through and got the Auckland number. I called that and left another voicemail. The following day I wrote an email. This email:
What ensued next was clusterfuckery of such great magnitude that it made the 6 o’clock news. It has me still sitting here at 1.45am more than a month and a half later with one wary eye on Eddy’s video monitor, the other on our tracking updates from the UK. We have absolutely no guarantee of when Eddy’s next lot of medicine will be delivered – I’ve written to Medsafe and called Customs asking for that too. Weeks or months they say. Penning this now in the latter end of May, with his meds delivered but nearly 2 months overdue, we have to ask – why isn’t the government stepping up to improve accessibility today? Years of empty promises nearly killed my son on his 7th birthday.
Back to Eddy’s first lot of seized medication. For the first time in 3 years, Eddy’s prescription for CBD was not included with the shipment of Eddy’s meds. Further, that the delivery address was our home, not the prescribers – was problematic. I was aware of this law change coming into effect, I genuinely didn’t think it had yet. Certainly, there had been no great advertisement as such – if there was, the Med Can patients and prescribers of NZ didn’t get the memo. The manufacturer was sure they had printed Eddy’s script out and included it as per usual. Medsafe was sure they had not. So we got a fresh prescription emailed directly to Medsafe and arranged with the manufacturer for an urgent dispatch of the same order to replace the medicine Medsafe had seized.
With one of Eddy’s CBD products now completely finished and only 2 days of full dose left in the other we already knew were working against the clock. Even a conservative estimate would have him a sitting duck for a week, waiting for increasing seizures to start launching surprise attacks during the day. What seems absolutely absurd to me is that we could not retrospectively apply a prescription to the products already here. That Eddy was left to suffer seizure after countless seizure, waiting for an identical dispatch of exact same medicine to arrive from the other side of the world, instead of just releasing to him the exact CBD medicine he needed that was already here.
By the time the second batch of medicines arrived in New Zealand it was April 19th and we were in a very dire place. Eddy had missed the last two weeks of the school term because his already increasing nocturnal seizures were starting to creep into the daytime too. CBD was now completely out of his system and the seizures were escalating. Our nights were punctuated by screams and Eddy wore the haunted look of a child who knows no rest. A child too scared to sleep for fear of the imminent suffocation and pain that awaits. He had bruises from head to toe where limbs and face had met hard things in the night and poor balance in the day. A child who would tell me he was scared of dying on his 7th birthday.
A child I let watch cartoons at 3.45 am because we didn’t want sleep to come back with another seizure. Because I was scared of him dying on his 7th birthday too.
Katy Thomas is a TV Presenter, business owner and patient advocate. She has a petition at her blog site wellfitmum.com and you can learn more about her journey at Instagram.com/iamkatythomas After Eddy was refused ketogenic diet support for his epilepsy through ADHB, she started ketogenic food company Keto Happy Co. to improve patient access and support. When she isn’t working on that she is Mum to Eddy and Harry.
So sorry to read this. I wonder what Jacinta would do if her daughter suffered seizures? The whole situation is farcical although I expect some corrupt customs official has diverted your shipment. The situation is farcical considering Ao/Nz could and should be a top producer of quality cbd, sustainable hemp products and harmless recreational etc yet civil servants and MPs all protect each other’s interests and sell offshore.
I have written to my MP protesting the treatment of Green Fairy Jason Tong, no reply. I wonder if any in the house retain enough humanity to feel sympathy at least, empathy being too much to ask for. Prayers for your little boy, I hope you can find something natural for him.
This is too awful to read.Such needless suffering! The government has wrecked the medicinal cannabis market just check out share prices for the listed companies.Big ask for Katy but keep it up and shame the bastards. The Ministry of Health is in the pay of big pharma.
Jesus. What a horror story. You’re living within a nightmare. We need a team of five million to tell the relevant politicians to do their jobs.
You do know that by growing pot then harvesting it when it’s mature at about early March you can very gently heat the wee heads in butter for a non smoke high ? Not too hot though or it’ll burn ( It’s an oils extraction thing.) Sieve through a pair of panty hose then refrigerate the green butter.
You can then bake etc into a nice (home made obviously) biscuit, cake, sweet etc. It’s an illegal process I’ll warn you which is as pathetic as it gets.
Warning! It will get your wee boy high which might makes things worse emotionally for him. Starting with tiny, tiny amounts would be a wise approach. Wiser still would be to not try that and suffer at the hands of fools because it is wisely illegal and the law is very, very wise, as we can see?
Now? Mr/Mrs/Ms LGBTQGF Police Person? How about giving Jacinda Adern and her colleagues a wee phone call and advise; ” Stop this shit. We’re sick and tired of policing a victimless crime which makes all us cops look like arse holes. ”
Adern and your colleagues? Remember? You’re there for us. Not, for some pious fundamentalist christian would – be new owner of AO/NZ. Please? You’re making AO/NZ stand at the back of the cue. You’re making us look like Amish squares man. I’ve been reading about the virtues of sobriety ( Specifically alcohol.) of late, humans do that when they can see the black velvet cloak get closer to their shoulders.
Why is it so important to live as long as one can, no matter the infirmity again?
Is that ‘living’ or is that someone else’s dodgy values being rammed down our throats because they think they might miss out on getting front row seats at what I’m sure will be a boring opera AKA the ‘after life’? Do we really want to go to where everyone’s sober and they’re all god botherer’s? Noooooo thank you. But thanks all the same.
Jacinda Adern? Just do it. You admitted you smoked pot back in the day and now you’re the prime minister. What would you have become had you not smoked pot? A gas station attendant? (No disrespect to actual gas station attendants meant. )
Washington DC? I mean ? What the fuck?
“D.C. voters approve ballot question to decriminalise psychedelic mushrooms”
https://www.washingtonpost.com/local/dc-politics/dc-magic-mushrooms-result/2020/11/03/bb929e86-1abc-11eb-bb35-2dcfdab0a345_story.html
“Voters approved a D.C. ballot initiative to decriminalise the use of magic mushrooms and other psychedelic substances Tuesday after a months-long campaign in which supporters collected signatures during the height of the coronavirus pandemic. “
And we’re letting our lazy, gutless OVER PAID politicians to arse about?
“Oregon Decriminalises All Drugs, While D.C. Decriminalises Psychedelics “
https://www.rollingstone.com/culture/culture-news/oregon-decriminalizes-all-drugs-while-d-c-decriminalizes-psychedelics-1085109/
Which pious twat/s in our government is pulling the hand brake on us? Just fuck off ! Go back to your Staffordshire pottery cup and saucer collections. Go and give mummy that foot massage she loves so much?
Poor wee kid, and you. My heart goes out to you both.
48% of us wanted change, would have been well over 60% had the right wing christians spreading misinformation didnt start up (something the govt promised to deal with but didnt)
NZ wants change but now its becoming more apparent we live in a dictatorship not a democracy and that voting is just to make us think its still a democracy.
literally being forced to source your own cbd . even if its understrength should be better than nothing and would be preferable to seizures and risk of death .
The fact we have to become criminals to get access to this amazing drug is what drove us to push for an election where cannabis was the main election plank.
And all of these narcissistic politicians have done nothing but duck and dive.
And we’re called the criminals?
Medicinal cannabis scheme is yet to deliver its first product, the standards set are so damn high its only possible if you got alot of cash outlay cutting out all the green fairies currently operating.
Then we had a referendum where the proposed legislation was so restrictive its like they were trying to dissuade people from voting yes, allowed right wing christians to walk all over us with a massive misinformation campaign and we narrowly lost. This in turn has meant those of us who will never be able to afford anything legal could then grow our own but alas the govt doesnt want that at all, and want to continue treating us like criminals.
Whats the point in voting if issues that affect vulnerable, sick and disabled people gets walked over.
All I can say these days is fuck the system and Im stopping voting. I expect alot of other people are going to follow suit.
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