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  1. Thankyou for being such strong advocates and spokespeople for change in the mental health system.
    Just today I found out there is No support or help within the system. Other than emergency respite; allocated 72 hours, then back home, with no suppport or help.
    This is very hard to share, but it is important…..
    I have a history of multiple traumas and have PTSD and relatively rare dissociative identity disorder as a result of abuses, traumas, major losses, natural disasters, survivor of crimes and I will add the mental health system.
    Recently I have had multiple significant triggers, these have accumulated, some are ongoing.
    Due to these there have been mental health relapses. Serious ones.
    Mental health services have been aware and it was a battle of three months, to receive any ongoing supports. This was abruptly and irreversible harmed by a DHB pyschologist stating a month ago that all traumas experienced in this life were “karma…as in paying back past lives” and “when someone has gone through early abuse, thay may create situations of adult trauma”. I stopped seeing her Yet it had a life changing significant impact and furthering mental health deteriation. Trust was gone as it was already tentative trust within the mental health system given remote past harmful experiences with their “services”.
    Last week there was a period of dissociation and dissociative states that lasted 22 hours. There was a police search. When there is dissociation due to significant triggers, stress and distress there is a very high suicide risk in a dissociative state and “I” have no memory or little memory. Managed to somehow get home although wet and disorientated (evidence at being at the beach-drowning attempt and loss of memory and where had 22 hours gone). Police were very kind (as they have always been-there have been other dissociative state episodes during this time), are aware of PTSD and DID. They are very aware trust in mental health services is limited to nil. They took a photo in the event I need to be found, as they are aware high likelihood of this happening again.
    I chose to go into respite the next day; into the mental health ward.
    There I was told by the psychiatrist that a case manager would be reinstated, the community support worker hours could be increased, at some stage have a group meeting with that pyschologist and would be supported to voice concerns, impact of toxic comments and where to from here, so to speak as well as an appointment with a psychiatrist next week.
    All this week waiting for a phone call re what I felt were positive hopeful and supportive plans even though trust was shattered.
    Today I find out there is to be No case manager at all, No community support at all. None. The community team Dismissed what the hospital stated that needed to and suggested to be done.
    Their answer (the community mental health team)….
    They can not lower risk level. As in suicide attempts or completed suicide while in a trauma based dissociated state.
    (And personal judgement) quite likely, DID is relatively rare therefore do not “know” how to help.
    Left with no human compassion, isolated, no supports, harmed by mental health and at risk of suicide while dissociated and dissociated state.
    Heart is broken, mind has fragmented further and soul is shattered….and complete self blame for abuses, traumas, major losses, natural disasters, survivor of crimes (even though two offenders were sent to jail a and for one crime I have permanent name suppression).
    Have been numb tonight (shock no doubt as to the mental health system Again)and all stress, distress, triggers and I do not know what each moment may bring. I do not know who to trust anymore.

    1. Please share, you have my permission. If only to be heard/read. The mental health system is Not trauma informed compassionate care based (quite the opposite with its medical based indifferent treated like a hospital number based, saving dollars). I have no idea how “my (our) story” will end; I (we) cant go through any more traumas or harms; this much I (we) know….
      BUT Most Importantly This needs to change for Others. Please. No other person should ever go through what has happened in my (our-dissociative identity disorder) situation.

    2. Incredibly sorry to hear of your trials, and especially your recent dismissive treatment by the MH system. Unfortunately, this sort of story is all too common. Those making decisions on MH need to read stories like this, and to start putting themselves in the shoes of those going through these traumas.

      1. Thankyou kindly for replying. I have no hope yet what would be a blessing if at all possible (I do not have funds available; living on $100 per week after power and rent)….
        I have had my daughter taken from me, robbed and assaulted, attempted manslaughter, sexual violations and other atrocities, traumas and again including mental health systems harms.
        As I say I have no hope and isolated (including christmas day alone; if still here-not a threat just a truth at this time) But considering it is this time of year it would be a blessing that all people in pyschiatric units across the country received a christmas card with a special message; one that resonates in hope, empathy, being heard, kindness and compassion etc. Many of the people in wards are isolated and to be in there on christmas day-new year will be very very hard for them.
        I am alone, isolated and do not want others being alone.

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